You can go back...

You ever pick up an album that you haven't listened to in years, pop it in, turn it up and wonder why the hell you haven't listened to it in so long? I'm sitting here, listening to Tori Amos. Little Earthquakes, to be specific. God, how I love this cd. I spent many an hour listening to this during my angsty teen years. Makes me all goosebumpy and soothes me at the same time. I'm learning to enjoy and appreciate these little periods of serenity in my all too chaotic life.

When asked how I'm feeling, I find myself saying I'm bored. But that's not really true. It's not boredom really. Unsatisfied? Unsettled? A bit overwhelmed? Those would be more accurate. I keep telling myself that I just need to get through another week and it will be better. More calm. The puzzle pieces will fall into place properly and I won't be missing that one piece from somewhere in the middle. There's always too much to do, too much to do, not enough time. I cross one thing off my list and two spring up in its place, like some sort of mythic paper hydra. It all falls on me. I'm the one not working right now, so I've become the family's secretary because I "have the time". I'm becoming a bit resentful. It's showing.

This stupid cold/allergy thing I've got isn't helping my mood. I need to go to the doctor about it. It's been going on for too long. I can't breathe anymore. And I need him to sign off for my State Board application, so I can kill two birds with one stone. I'm so behind with my application. I graduated back in January and I haven't applied yet. I never had the time. Then I never had the money. Now, I have neither, but I have to find a way to make it happen. I need to study my ass off, too. A friend of mine failed the written part. Said it was very hard. Luckily, that's where I'm strongest. I'm a good test taker and the hardest subjects were my main strengths. So I'm keeping my fingers crossed. After I get my check-up and send off my application, it'll take at least a few months. I'm hoping to get in when my friend takes her re-test. All I need is a model. But that's another story...

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Yikes:
Library book returned 100 years late. £5,000 fine!

Meh:
Anyone who knows me knows I'm not happy about the new colorized versions of our paper money. Here's the new $50. It looks...like Monopoly money.

Nifty:
Escher in 3-D here and here.

Hee!:
You have to watch this hilarious video with Will Ferrell. Too funny!